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Tuesday, April 26, 2011

How you see yourself?

I was watching TV last night.  On Entertainment Tonight they were talking about Kate Middleton and her dress size.  I have always thought that she was a very beautiful woman and also very thin.  They asked some to guess her dress size.  They announced that it was a UK size 8 which is a US size 6.  I was stunned to say the least I would have guessed a US 2 or something.  This leads me to a thought as I am a US size 6 right now.  I totally don't see myself as thin. 


Does anyone else deal with this?  I still feel some days that I am wearing a 20.  Or that I am close to that.  I wear small tops and 6 bottoms.  I have often thought about heading to the children's section to see what I find by way of pants as they used to fit me so well years ago as I am so short.  Yet I still feel like I am fat. 

I felt totally guilty today and confessed to my best friends at work that I had a Mello Yello today.  I hadn't had one in two months, but since I hit 10 lbs to go, I just wanted one.  Then I talked to them about how guilty I felt after I drank it because I may "wake up and have all of the weight back!"  I am seriously f***ed up.  Of course being great like they are they told me one soda wasn't going to put me over the edge and make me gain 70 lbs, then proceeded to give me twizzlers.  Aren't they the bestest!? LOL 

I guess my question to all is "When did you start to feel your size?" 

8 comments:

Stephanie said...

I thuought a UK 8 was a size 4 US. Either way she is skinny all over!!

Justawallflower said...

Most of the time I still feel like I look the same size. I know I don't, but hey, can't help the way I feel!

Amanda said...

I am no where near you at all....but it is hard for me to give away my clothes! Even though I know that I won't fit into that 20 again!

Laura Belle said...

I'm a size 10 and I feel that size. However, there have been a lot of people that say, "oh, you look great, you don't need to lose any more weight!" But I guess, I just feel like I'm not that healthy at a size 10. I want to be a size 6-8, hopefully when I get there, I'll be happy with that!

Island Bandit said...

i know exactly what you mean. only a few friends 'get it' when i talk about how although realistically i am aware of how much smaller i am, that i can't see it until i see a photo of myself next to someone else i consider tiny.... i don't look at myself in the mirror or alone in a photo and go 'damn... you're skinny!' and if i actually went out and bought some new clothes, i'm a size six.....

MandaPanda said...

I'm nowhere near goal so I'm afraid I can't answer that aspect. What I can tell you is that I haven't donated or thrown away one shirt, pair of pants or even panties since losing the 50+ lbs I've lost. I'm afraid I'm going to need them when I gain the weight back. Talk about sick.

Kiki said...

I've had body distortion for as long as I can remember. I feel like I look exactly the same at my current weight as I did at my highest and at my lowest. For the record, that's a span of over 100 lbs!! It's not until I see pictures of myself that I see the (sometimes painful) truth.

Silverhairedgoddess said...

It is hard for me to see the weight loss (still have 38 pounds to go) only time it hits home with me that I have lost alot of weight is when I happen to see an old picture of myself !

I was looking at the photos you posted in March and I must say you look amazing - so skinny :)!

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