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Thursday, September 8, 2011

Coming clean...

I can't believe that I have disappeared for almost 2 months.  Seeing my current status, I should have been around.  I last left you all with having a major unfill.  That was the worst thing that I could have done.  I have put on 20 lbs in 2 months!  I truly think that I hadn't dealt with a lot of my issues from losing my brother and the hunger came that I hadn't felt in a year and I ate, and ate, and ate.  I can't wear any of my clothes.  I went a dug a bunch out of the storage closet while in tears yesterday.  I don't want to go back there! 

This has all been compounded with insurance issues.  I can't get back in for a new fill at my surgeons office because my insurance says I should see the new guy who is local to me.  I new guy would have to refuse to see me to get my insurance to pay for my surgeon.  Don't we all love HMO's?  I have an appointment on this Friday at the new surgeons office.  They seem rude on the phone.  I asked the secretary yesterday when they called me if it was a possibility to get a fill at that first appointment and she said she didn't know.  I can't handle another month of this.  I am ready to get back in the game.  I have lost all of the strides that I made this year.  Maybe I dealt with some of the stuff that I hadn't dealt with, but still 20 efffin lbs???  I am 5'2, I look like a balloon! 

Thanks all for the vent!

9 comments:

Catherine55 said...

Hang in there, Heather. You're back on the wagon now, and that 20 pounds will be off before you know it.

Please don't worry about going to someone new for the fill -- it's such an easy procedure -- and it's fast, so even if they are jerks at that office, you'll only have to deal with them for a short while. It's just important that you get in there and get to good restriction so that you can have your band's help to get that 20 off! You can do it. Try to keep blogging through it too -- I am sure you'll help a lot of other people who are going through the same thing!

Ronnie said...

You can get it back off quickly, I just know it. Don't be sad, you've gone through alot over this past year. *hugs!*

FitBy40 said...

oh you poor honey. I'm so sorry you've had to deal with so much stress. Now it's time to focus on YOU. You can do it, you did it before, it's like riding a bike!
Good luck!

Jacquie said...

Do not beat yourself up Heather...you have been through real hell with the loss of your brother....this you can handle! I'm glad you are back here and scheduled for a fill! That is the most important thing.

Ever since my family's tragedy, I always put things in perspective. Our vacation was cut short by 2 days because of Hurricane Irene. Very dissapointing but you know what, we can take another vacation. My dad and BIL don't have that option. I look at weight gain the same way....your up 20 lbs? You can get it off...you have that option and you will do it!

Great to have you back here!

Darlin1 said...

Thanks for finding your way back Heather....

Theresa aka Tessie Rose said...

You've made a huge step, you're blogging about it and you've made an appointment. Just be up front with them and tell the new practice that you have to have some fill back, explain it to them, they'll listen. Hang in there, you're not alone. I just got a fill and I was up 3 pounds, I know it was only a matter of time, it was coming on so quickly...we have a band for a reason! Don't beat yourself up over this, just learn from it and move forward...you CAN do this! Big Hugs!

~Lisa~ said...

Ohhhh I am sooo glad you're back - I've missed YOU!!

You're going to do this.. You've done it before, you can do it again. You have what it takes, now go kick butt!

Please don't stay away so long!

Silverhairedgoddess said...

The main thing is that you are doing something about it and going to see the doctor about a fill - I hope that you get a fill at this appointment - hang in there - before you know it the 20 pounds will be gone.

Kiwigirl said...

Welcome back. You CAN do this - you've done it before and you know how to succeed. Don't worry about the new surgeon - take a fill from anyone you can get it from, it's only for a few minutes so you can ignore them if they are rude! Good luck, fingers crossed for you!

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