I can't believe that I have disappeared for almost 2 months. Seeing my current status, I should have been around. I last left you all with having a major unfill. That was the worst thing that I could have done. I have put on 20 lbs in 2 months! I truly think that I hadn't dealt with a lot of my issues from losing my brother and the hunger came that I hadn't felt in a year and I ate, and ate, and ate. I can't wear any of my clothes. I went a dug a bunch out of the storage closet while in tears yesterday. I don't want to go back there!
This has all been compounded with insurance issues. I can't get back in for a new fill at my surgeons office because my insurance says I should see the new guy who is local to me. I new guy would have to refuse to see me to get my insurance to pay for my surgeon. Don't we all love HMO's? I have an appointment on this Friday at the new surgeons office. They seem rude on the phone. I asked the secretary yesterday when they called me if it was a possibility to get a fill at that first appointment and she said she didn't know. I can't handle another month of this. I am ready to get back in the game. I have lost all of the strides that I made this year. Maybe I dealt with some of the stuff that I hadn't dealt with, but still 20 efffin lbs??? I am 5'2, I look like a balloon!
Thanks all for the vent!