I totally never thought that I would be here. I had my children never thinking that they would leave me. I figured that they would always be there no matter what. My oldest son started high school today. I think that I cried more today than I did the day he started kindergarten. I feel like my days with him are numbered. Why this is hitting me like this I don't know. I still see him as that skinny little kid who we never thought would grow into his ears. He has grown into them nicely and is so much taller than me too! Not a hard thing to accomplish as I am 5'2". I feel like I can see the end my duties to him, and I don't like it one bit.
I have a 1 year old, so my youngness is still upon me, but I feel like I am ancient. Next comes the driver's license. I am not sure if I can handle him being in control of anything that goes more than 5mph. He will get his permit in January. Why did my mother not explain (or maybe I didn't listen) that it is all over in a blink. You don't realize when you think that the diapers will never end, that you will wake up and they will be going to prom. Make the most of every moment, no matter what and treasure each stage in your children's life no matter how annoying it is at the time. I feel like I have missed out on so much even though I have been there the whole time. That is my truest wish with the band, I have so much more energy now to be involved with my kids and not worry about being the "fat mom."