Feeling Better

I am feeling better today.  I almost feel like life is back to some form of normal.  I know it won't ever be the same.  I am going to make cookies with my 10 year old today.  I had promised him that we would make them last weekend before our tragedy struck.  I need to spend some time with him.

I go back to work full time tomorrow.  I have a busy day so that will keep my mind busy. 

I weighed in for the challenge today.  I lost 15.6 lbs over the term of the challenge.  I am still trying to wrap my head around the fact that I don't eat my way through stress anymore.  It is the exact opposite.  My husband is now calling it the anorexia diet.  It is far from that!  I have been having more protein shakes as my band is really tight right now.  I had chili for lunch yesterday along with some cucumbers and dip.  For dinner, I had 4 shrimp in scampi sauce.  He just doesn't understand band portions.  I have lost a bunch of weight in the past week and a half.  It is so strange to me.  I actually cussed my brother while I stood on the scale yesterday.  I thanked him for the loss, but told him he could have totally come up with a better way to help me.  (a little more colorful words were chosen at my house)  I am totally disinterested in food.  I don't remember to eat.  It is very different from how I handled stress in the past.   My mother on the other hand has had her hand in the chocolate bowl constantly for the past week and a half!  So glad I am no longer in that position! 

I finally finished my Christmas shopping last night.  I was beginning to think that I was going to be one of those idiots out on Christmas eve!  (No offense if you like that sort of thing)  I am so glad to be finished.  I only have to wrap what I picked up today, so that won't take long and everything is in a nice square box!  Gotta take the small victories where you can find them!