Original Goal... I did it!



I hit goal once... I CAN do it again!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Wow, I feel like I have been gone forever...

I am still here.  I am reading and commenting a lot more than I was so I am making progress.  We still do not know the outcome of the autopsy.  I feel like it has been so long (a month already), that when we do get the results it will be like he has just passed all over again.  I feel like he is just gone, like in the Marines again gone.  I don't know if it just hasn't completely hit me yet or what.  I really missed him at my son's 15th birthday party on Sunday.  It was almost like there was an empty chair.  My parents are in California for the time being and my brother was all the family that we had in the area.  I feel awfully alone.

My husband has still been absolutely amazing.  This sounds awful, but this event has drawn us much closer together.  We depend on each other so much more now.  My husband is not one to express himself directly, but he put the nicest memorial on my brother's facebook page.  I knew that they had been close, but I didn't realize how much so until I read his words.

On a happier note, I bought a goal outfit!!!!  I will fit in it someday!  It is a size 6.  We are going to Hawaii in November.  I am in a 10 now, with some 8's starting to fit.  I really hope to be at goal by November.  I have 23 lbs to go! 




This is NOT ME!  Just the dress.  I really wish it was me...

11 comments:

amandakiska said...

I wish there was some magic thing I could say to make things better. I just can't imagine how hard it must be. I'm so glad you have your husband to turn to in this time and I'm glad that you both realize how precious life is.

You look AMAZING!

Jacquie said...

I totally understand you and your husband being closer than ever now. My husband and I are the same way. I think its because when something like this happens, it really hits home how fragile life is and we appreciate each other and try not to take things for granted.

You will absolutely make your goal and get into that dress!

Bonnie said...

It doesn't sound awful at all the tragedy has brought you and your husband closer. Much better than the alternative. The dress is so cute, but I'm confused - aren't you already in the dress?

Heather said...

Ok I edited it... Not me in the dress no matter how much I wish it was. I really hope to be in it soon!

cadx2mom said...

I hope the time will heal your heart! Know that he will always be there in your heart. On a lighter note -- that dress is fabulous and you will be hot stuff in Hawaii.

~Lisa~ said...

Not awful at all - it sounds loving.. The way a couple should be and act during these sad and tragic times...

That dress is absolutely gorgeous! Ohhh I want that dress..

To Band or not To Band? said...

Hello gorgeous! Welcome back! I lurve that dress and it won't be soon until it is you!

MandaPanda said...

Love the dress! 23 lbs in 10 months is totally doable!

Tragedies such as yours can tear families apart or bring them closer than ever. So glad you're experiencing the latter.

Tracy said...

hang in there Heather! How nice that you and your hubby have connected through tragedy...that's the sign of a true soul-mate. Thank God you have him.

Cute dress! Good goal to shoot for.

Tracy
bandedadventures.blogspot.com

The Cozy (not crazy) Coconut said...

What a beautiful goal dress!!

Rachel said...

With the way you are going...I think 23 lbs is very reasonable. The dress is beautiful.

http://rachelthinwitin.blogspot.com/

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