When is enough enough?

I think that I have written about this before, but it has been weighing on me a lot lately.  No pun intended.  When is it time to be done?  I have been dealing with people at work stating that I am getting too thin.  That sentiment has spilled over to the Courthouse today.  I had mention from the Court reporters and a couple of ladies at the Clerk's office.  Thing is I have 13 lbs to go to ultimate goal.  I am still overweight for 2 more lbs.  I am getting a little worried as I am now in a size 6 and 13 more lbs would definitely put me in a size 4.  How accessible is a  size 4 to purchase?  I don't want to be in the same predicament that I was in as a large woman with not being able to find clothing that would fit.  I am in size small pajamas.  Will I have to go to the kids section?  Remember the Dora Panty post?  This all being said, my stomach is still fat.  I still have a good size roll that I can grab on to.  My thighs look like a butt.  I can't afford plastics.  If I lose the 13 lbs, will it come off my stomach or maybe my butt thighs?  I guess I am a little confused about where this journey ends.  I don't know if I could stop losing at this point if I decided not to, but it takes some thought.  Here are some progress pics.  9 months - 69 lbs down

Ok I totally look special ed in this photo, but it shows my stomach without showing too much other stuff...

Question for all...

So I have a question...  I changed my profile pic to a full body shot because damn, I am in love with my new body.  Problem arises that when I comment on someone's blog, I end up looking like the headless horseman!  How do I prevent this? I am also wanting to find some time to jazz up my blog some.  It will take me forever though.  My question with this one is how do you add multiple pages?  I would love to add some pics!  Thanks everyone!

So I am back, but not being a good blogger...

I am back home from visiting mom.  I have to say I had a great time!  Life has been so hectic since I returned as I got home late on Monday evening (plane was seriously delayed in Phoenix) and went to work at 8am on Tuesday.  I have mounds of laundry as my husband justified his lack of laundry skills by saying it was impossible to do laundry as we didn't have detergent in the house.   I asked him if they closed the wal-mart while I was gone and didn't get a response.  My husband did however survive the 8 days with the 3 kids.  I am impressed with that.  Weight loss has been great and I lost some weight during my trip which is absolutely awesome as my mother seemed to not understand the concept of me not being able to eat much.  She also didn't understand that bread does not agree with me.  I even tried to go for the crusty part of a roll to shut her up and she took it and said you can have the soft (sticky) middle!  OMG  she totally didn't get it.  I survived eating with her with only 2 stuck episodes.  I haven't gotten stuck since so it was total operator error, but still...  I don't think that I have ever been on a vacation and came back lighter than when I left.  That is amazing.  Do you know what else is amazing?  I am 15 (YES 15) pounds from my goal!  I can't even imagine life there. 

So check me out in my size 6 Lucky capris!!!!! 

I can't believe that I can fit in a size 6!  I am still officially overweight by Mr. BMI (it has to be a man) for a couple more pounds, but a size 6!?  I am impressed with myself after 3 kids.

So mom and I went to Las Vegas on a whim during my trip to visit her.  Here we are right after our helicoptor ride to the Grand Canyon.

I gave mom that outfit.  I am so glad that I can't wear it anymore!

Right before I left on my trip my youngest son crossed over from Cub Scouts to Boy Scouts.  It was a wonderful evening.  Here is a pic of my boys, and yes the older one is that tall!  I am not sure where he got it... I am 5'2"! 

 

Who can forget the princess!

 

I am still trying to catch up on reading everyone's posts from when I was gone.  If my commenting is a little light, I am just really behind.  I am working to get caught up on everyone's goings on.  I WILL get caught up!  Just call me the  behind blogger.  OK don't that sounds a bit strange...

Having a wonderful time!

Mom and I are having a  wonderful time on our visit.  She did not know I was coming until Dad pulled up at the airport and told her to go in and find me!  She was ecstatic!  We have had great fun.  On Monday and Tuesday we drove to Las Vegas and spent some time.  I am not a gambler, so I found other things to occupy my time.  Mom is a gambler so we did spend a fair amount of time in the casinos.   I hadn't been to Las Vegas before so it was an experience.  We are back at her RV now.  She lives in the mountains about an hour from San Diego.  I surely didn't think Southern California would look like this!

I am here until Monday then it is back to reality.  Amazingly, I think that my husband is surviving with the kids.  Have a wonderful week.  I just paid my money for the Spring Challenge.  I am ready to get the rest of this weight off!

About to head off to Sunny San Diego!

And mom still doesn't know!  I am so proud of myself for being able to keep this secret from her.  I have talked to dad several times and he seems excited about it too.  He is really excited that mom doesn't know.  I leave on Sunday and will be back on Monday a week later.  My dad is only off work on Sundays so if I am to spend any time with him I have to stay that extra Sunday.  I am really excited.  I know that this trip is going to be emotionally draining, but I think it will be an integral part of the healing process for all of us.

I hope that I can get my mom out of the house and walking and such.  She really needs the air, to meet people and I will go insane if I don't get my exercise.  I am still on a downward trek and am 1 pound away from a new decade.  I will be so excited to see that one.  I was putting some stuff away the other day and came across some of my medical records that I had when I got my insurance approval.  I officially weigh less than when I had my gall bladder surgery in 2001!  I was a skinny mini then.  That started my upward trek.  A 10 year odyssey!    I am so glad to be there.  I still want to lose about 15 more pounds.  I will get there, it just will take time...  Maybe the Spring Challenge will get me going! I need some motivation!

ABC's of me!

I love these little survey's. Since so many were posted today, I guessed I should join in!

(A) Age: 35
(B) Bed Size: King
(C) Chore You Hate: Emptying the dishwasher, loading the dishwasher, anything that has to do with dishes
(D) Dogs? none... cat person actually
(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: Coffee
(F) Favorite Color: Green
(G) Gold or Silver? Silver
(H) Height: 5'2"
(I) Instruments You Play: none
(J) Job Title: Probation Officer
(K) Kids: 3 boys (stepson 19, 15, 10) 1 girl (2)
(L) Live: Southern Illinois
(M) Mom's Name: Debbie
(N) Nicknames: Honey
(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? Kidney infection while pregnant with my first, and then with each of my 3 babies.
(P) Pet Peeve: Stupid people
(Q) Quote from a Movie: hmmm... have to think about that one
(R) Right or Left Handed? Right
(S) Siblings: 1 brother who passed away this year at age 30
(T) Time You Wake Up? 6am
(U) Underwear: Hanes Hipsters
(V) Vegetable You Dislike: Cooked Carrots
(W) What Makes You Run Late: I have 3 kids at home, any questions?
(X) X-Rays You've Had Done: teeth, kidneys
(Y) Yummy Food You Make: Chicken strips with Panko crumbs. The kids won't eat fried Chicken strips anymore, they prefer these!
(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Penguins

What is Normal?

As I approach "normal" on the BMI scale, I wonder what is "normal?"  I am not ready to stop losing yet.  I have a goal in 17 lbs.  I just wonder what the societal definition of normal is.  I have talked about work before and how we all have worked together (14 of us) for 7 years.  We know everything there is to know about each other and can tell by a look what mood the other is in.  The guys in the office LOVE that we have the same cycle too.  After spending the past 7 years with these people, no one thinks twice about telling you that you have a pimple or a nose hair sticking out.  Sickly there are some that say... let me take care of that!  Back to my story.  The people at work are telling me that I am getting too thin.  I still have a serious stomach on me and my thighs still look like a butt, but they are telling me that I am getting to thin.  I think and think that maybe they are right, but I don't want to stop.  I don't hit "normal" BMI for another 6 lbs.

I don't remember if I talked about the problem that I came across a couple of weeks ago with underwear.  (Not the husband problem)  I am 5'2" and am very small boned.  At my largest, I still wore a size 6 ring (I am working on a 4.5 now).  My mother would order me bracelets in children's sizes and I was morbidly obese.  As I lose, I am definitely getting smaller.  So I went to buy new underwear again and looking at sizing, I bought the smallest size on the shelf.  They fit really well.  So I got thinking that if I lose 20 more pounds,  that would definitely be another underwear size.  What am I to do, I have bought the smallest size they carry at Walmart.  The ladies at work suggested Dora panties, but they are just bitches anyway.  LOL  Seriously, am I going to have to resort to Dora panties??????