Original Goal... I did it!

I hit goal once... I CAN do it again!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

First visit with the new Dr.

Well I went to my appointment with the new dr. The office was nicer in person than they were on the phone so that was a good thing. Completed all of the health history stuff and the dr came in. He was pretty nice, but in ways I felt him to be thorough. He listened to what I had to say and he told me that he wanted me to have an upper gi before he did too much with my band just to make sure that everything is just right. I go for that this week. He did give me a 1cc fill although I am not feeling much difference.

He also is going to do a full lab workup which I haven't had done at my old practice testing for all vitamin deficiencies too. This makes me happy as I am still losing a lot of hair 15 months after surgery. This fact is another reason that I had so much fill taken out in July. I was tired of losing so much hair! Unfortunately that didn't help and I still fill the drain with hair at every shower. Maybe the labs will indicate something.

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Thursday, September 8, 2011

Coming clean...

I can't believe that I have disappeared for almost 2 months.  Seeing my current status, I should have been around.  I last left you all with having a major unfill.  That was the worst thing that I could have done.  I have put on 20 lbs in 2 months!  I truly think that I hadn't dealt with a lot of my issues from losing my brother and the hunger came that I hadn't felt in a year and I ate, and ate, and ate.  I can't wear any of my clothes.  I went a dug a bunch out of the storage closet while in tears yesterday.  I don't want to go back there! 

This has all been compounded with insurance issues.  I can't get back in for a new fill at my surgeons office because my insurance says I should see the new guy who is local to me.  I new guy would have to refuse to see me to get my insurance to pay for my surgeon.  Don't we all love HMO's?  I have an appointment on this Friday at the new surgeons office.  They seem rude on the phone.  I asked the secretary yesterday when they called me if it was a possibility to get a fill at that first appointment and she said she didn't know.  I can't handle another month of this.  I am ready to get back in the game.  I have lost all of the strides that I made this year.  Maybe I dealt with some of the stuff that I hadn't dealt with, but still 20 efffin lbs???  I am 5'2, I look like a balloon! 

Thanks all for the vent!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Unfill is going well

I mentioned that I went to my Dr. last week for a big unfill.  I had 3cc taken out leaving me with 3.5 in my band.  I have to say after this weekend, I can't be happier!  I had been having a lot of trouble getting in enough calories for maintenance and had resorted to eating crap with no nutritional value just to get the calories.  I really wanted good food!  I have been able to eat well and it is great.  The nurse said that my weight may waver a bit this week, but it hasn't at all.  I think I am getting the same caloric amount, but now more nutrition.  I feel that I probably was too tight for too long, but wonder if I could have lost the weight without being so tight.  I would want to eat so bad, but just give up because it was too much trouble.  I also wasn't getting in enough water or liquids as it would be close to 1.5 hours before anything would go down after eating.  I didn't have time to constantly be drinking if I wasn't trying to eat so I just didn't drink or would forget.  I am loving that I can drink again whenever I want!

I am now feeling good about everything and some people at work are asking if I would do it all again.  The answer to that is a definate YES! 

Friday, July 8, 2011

I can't believe it has almost been a month...

Hi everyone!  I can't believe it has been so long since I have posted, but I have been reading although my commenting has left much to be desired.  Sorry to everyone.  When I last left you, we were starting to work on the kitchen remodel.  Boy, that was a job.  My husband and I don't hire things out, so we do all of the work ourselves.  We have a system of who does what and it seems to work pretty well most of the time.  The kitchen is the last room in the house that needed a makeover so I am glad to have that accomplished!  Now on to the pictures...  You all are seeing this before my children, as they have been visiting my parents in California since we started and now finished!  I hope they will be surprised! 

The Befores:  (these are when I was buying the house.  I had made small changes like appliances and a good cleaning, but you get the picture...)

And the afters!!!!

I can't believe that we dealt with that nasty ugly dysfunctional kitchen for that long!  We are in love with the results!  My husband actually cut all of the granite himself too.  Always an excuse for some new tools!

In band news, I went yesterday for a major unfill.  I had resorted to eating crapola to get my calories up in order not to lose more weight.  I so wanted to eat good food.  I had 6.5cc in my 10cc band.  I had 3 removed yesterday.  I am going to work maintenance with a lower fill level and see how that goes.  The nurse told me that I was too tight anyway.  When she put the needle in my port it started pushing saline in the syringe without her doing anything!  Wish me luck!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Let's show some BOOBs love

I found this morning that a new blogger Kristina is following me and she just started her 21 DAY pre-op diet on Tuesday.  Let's show her a Boobs welcome!  http://lapband-complete180.blogspot.com/

Saturday, June 11, 2011

1 year has came and went, and I have to say... If I can do this, ANYONE CAN!

So my one year banded date has past (June 9) and I am finally getting around to posting my pictures.  Sorry I didn't post them on the day, but since my brother passed away on my 6 month band day, I was having a bad day with the fact that he had been gone 6 months.  I also spent the weekend with my mother in St. Louis.  She has flown in from San Diego for the weekend and then she is leaving on Tuesday and taking my sons (15 & 11) with her for 5 weeks before my father brings them back in July.  They love traveling with my parents in the summertime.  They have been doing this for the past 4 summers.

While in St. Louis, we took my 2 year old to the zoo.  We had a wonderful time and it was awesome to be able to walk around and keep up with her without a problem.

So on to the pictures...  The befores were taken the night before my surgery.  I had lost some weight already and thought I was looking good.  How our perception is warped sometimes...

I know that many of you ask, "What do you eat?"  They glory of this whole process, is I eat ANYTHING I want!  Now mind you, I like to keep pretty well track of what I am eating, but if I want to eat cheese puffs and ice cream that day, I DO!  This band has allowed me to take control of my eating and my life.  I am loving every minute of this new life.   I myself am the first to be amazed by this transformation.  I know that if I can do this, ANYONE can!

Monday, June 6, 2011

1 year measurements

Since I have had my band for one year this week, I decided that it was time to take my measurements again.  I recommend taking measurements to anyone who is researching the band or newly banded.  It really helps to see some changes when the scale doesn't seem to be cooperating.  Anyway, on to the measurements... but before that I have a picture that gives a bit of a visual.

                          Then                  Now                 Change
Neck                  16                      11                     -5
Bicep                  15                      11                     -4  (x2)
Forearm             10                      8.5                    -1.5 (x2)
Chest                 42.5                   34                     -8.5
Waist                 41                       28.5                 -12.5
Hips                   51                       34                    -17
Thigh                  28                       19.5                 -8.5 (x2)
Calf                    16                       13                    -3 (x2)

That brings us to a grand total of 77 inches!  That also comes to nearly an inch a pound.  How amazing is that!?? Oh and on a second thought, how did I walk around with an extra 8.5 inches on each thigh??

Saturday, June 4, 2011

So today is a day to think about the past and the future...

It is totally my BIRTHDAY!  I know there are a couple of other band"stars" out there who share this day with me and to you I wish a wonderful day to you also! 

It being my birthday and less than a week until Bandiversary, I have really spent a lot of time thinking about this past year.  On my birthday last year we were on a mini vacation and I was on my pre-op diet.  That wasn't a fun trip, but was it worth it???  HELL YES!  I would have never thought that I would have been as successful as I have been this year.  If you could have told me on my last birthday that next year I would have dropped from a size 20 to a 4, I would have thought you were on crack.  I didn't believe that it could happen to me. 

It DID happen to me, because I MADE it happen and I am so glad that I did.  I feel amazing. I look amazing.
What could be better? 

I have realized as I have poked through pictures that I spent too much time fat.  I wasted so many of my years making excuses for myself when I should have just taken control.  I feel 10 years younger now.  It is amazing.

This year also met me with the hardest challenge I have yet to face in my life...  the loss of my dear brother.   I have been adjusting to life as an only child, but I miss him terribly.  His passing has changed more about me than the weight loss.  I live life to the fullest everyday now.  I do not wait until it is a better situation to do things I want to do.  Waiting is not in the cards for me anymore.  Life is too short to wait until you have more money, or lose 10 lbs, or the sky is bluer. 

The next year will be an adventure for me.  We are living life and moving on.  The kitchen remodel is going well.  We are still waiting on a few cabinets that are ordered to come in before we can move on further.  It is looking AWESOME!  Maybe, just maybe, I might just want to cook now.  I realized that this kitchen was so dysfunctional, that I just didn't want to spend any time in there.  I used to love to cook. 

Well I have rambled enough now.  I am working on my one year post with all kinds of pictures and such.  I will get that posted next week!

Sunday, May 22, 2011


What a wonderful morning to wake up and find that the world didn't end, and I have 200 followers!  When I started this journey, I didn't figure anyone would care about what I had to say.

I was thinking yesterday as I was posting to Facebook about my husband and my anniversary that I can't believe that I spent so many years big.  I posted a picture from our wedding with it.   I couldn't help but think how much fun it would have been to search for a dress at this smaller size.   Oh well, I won't be doing that again as this was our 4th anniversary after getting remarried after being divorced for 3 years and married for 10 before that.  OK that was a mouthful, but if you follow me...  I am married to my ex-husband LOL.  That "break" as we call it was the best thing ever for us.  We never were totally happy in the first 10 years.  We can say now that we are totally happy in every way.  This is what it was supposed to be.  I met my husband when I was 17 years old.  We got married the first time when I was 19.

I had a good cry going through the photos to find one to post on Facebook with my status.  I really miss my brother.  Tell me, does it get any better?  The other day I broke down to a full on crying jag in the middle of meeting with a client at WORK!  These people must think I am nuts!  Let alone this was my first meeting with these clients.

Back to the wedding photo.  I am so glad that I don't look like that anymore.  Our anniversary yesterday was supposed to consist of working on the kitchen cabinets and such.  Unfortunately, we got a call at 7am that one of our boys was sick at Scout Camp and we needed to come and get him.  Camp was 3 hours away.  We spent our whole day in the car.  Oh well, we worked on the cabinets when we got home and I have to say the part that we have finished didn't have cabinets before and I LOVE it.  I have room for everything!  I will post photos when we get this all finished.  I can't wait.  I hope that the cabinet maker finishes the few cabinets that we are short before we can work on the island and the other wall soon!

Everyone have a wonderful Sunday.  I am going to get off of here and work on some laundry! 

Friday, May 20, 2011

Good Friday Morning!

It has been a week since I have last been here.  Lets just say the week has been interesting.  First off, my normally great marriage went awry with probably one of the bigger fights we have had in the 18 years we have been together.  Lets just say he thought it would be a good idea for my cellphone to take a dip in paint thinner!  He said "well I was mad and it was there.." Yeah, Bullshit!  Oh well all is on the mend and I have a new phone on the way tomorrow. 

Our anniversary is tomorrow and we are going to be really romantic and hang kitchen cabinets.  I have been waiting for a new kitchen since we bought this house 6 years ago,  and the day has come.  It has been a lot of work leading up to this as I got the ingenious idea that getting the cabinets you stain would be a good move.  My thought process is that we have hardwood floors throughout the upstairs except the kitchen which is tile.  We refinished them 3 summers ago so I know what stain I used so I could get red oak cabinets and stain them the same as the hardwoods and it would pull the whole house together.  BIG JOB!  I am almost finished with 1/2 of the cabinets.  I haven't brought home the rest as they wouldn't fit in my garage.  I am exhausted.  My poor 15 year old made the mistake and informed me that they learned how to stain in shop class this year.  That wasn't the smartest move on his part this week.  He has helped though. 

On the weightloss front, after a stall for what seemed like forever, I have lost 3 lbs this week!  I am not sure what is going on as I haven't changed anything!  I am not going to complain though as I really want to get to goal.  Only 7lbs to go!  I am truly believing that hormones control a lot of this and my body just said it was time to let go again. 

I need to be getting everyone up and ready for school.  Have a wonderful Friday everyone and here's to hoping that yours is sunny!

Friday, May 13, 2011

Well I get to type again...

I typed this post yesterday on my ipod and it was lost for some reason so here I go again...

I am holding steady at 135 lbs.  Unfortunately this is just 3 lbs away from overweight, so I would really like to lose 10 more lbs to have more of a cushion in the normal range.  I don't know if I will get there anytime soon.  My mind really hasn't been in the game.  I am pretty depressed.   I am hoping that soon that will subside a bit.  Up until last week I was still driving my brother's truck on a daily basis.  That was difficult on me, but we were supposed to sell it and it was in the paper for quite some time.  My husbands car was on its last leg, so we finally decided to trade it for him a new to us van.  It was very difficult to let it go, but necessary. 

My mind just isn't into losing.  I probably need another fill, but I have been able to maintain for over a month by eating anything that I wanted.  Those food choices probably haven't been the best, but I have maintained with no problem. 

I am thinking about talking to my doctor regarding this depression.  He gives me a LOT of xanax to deal, but I need something that is longer lasting.  I am afraid to take anything though, as what my mom got on she has gained all of the weight that she lost back... FAST.  Oh and she felt fit to share with me that she no longer has any interest in sex.  (Thanks for that one mom!)   I can't deal with those side effects.  I guess I will just muddle on and hope for the best.

I want to be able to post more.  I really do!  I read everyday, just haven't been too inspired to write anything down.  I totally do not regret my band in any way!  This is the best thing I have ever done with my life.  Thanks for listening to my rambling...

Thursday, May 12, 2011


So I just typed out this whole post on my iPod and it disappeared! Be back later with a real post! Geez
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Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I am in LOVE!

I was a big soda drinker for many years.  Always yellow sodas.  I have never been able to stand colas.  Diet Mt. Dew was just nasty.  What is a girl to do?  Well I gave up on soda for over a year.  I would have one regular Mello Yello (my preferred) a month as a treat to myself.  Imagine my surprise when I went into my local little grocer today and saw this...
I think I was actually jumping for joy in the store!  I bought a 20oz and it was WONDERFUL!

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Needed.... Ark

Since Friday we have had 11.5 inches of rain in our rain gauge!  The Mississippi River and the Ohio River are both seriously flooded and they converge 60 miles south of me.  This is all adding up to a not good situation.  My husband hasn't slept through the night in a week as he gets up every couple of hours to make sure the basement is ok.  The river that flows through our town in only 5 feet from the bottom of the bridge.  Luckily we only have to deal with the storm drains backflowing.  I just wish it would stop RAINING! 

This better bring some awesome May flowers! 

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

How you see yourself?

I was watching TV last night.  On Entertainment Tonight they were talking about Kate Middleton and her dress size.  I have always thought that she was a very beautiful woman and also very thin.  They asked some to guess her dress size.  They announced that it was a UK size 8 which is a US size 6.  I was stunned to say the least I would have guessed a US 2 or something.  This leads me to a thought as I am a US size 6 right now.  I totally don't see myself as thin. 

Does anyone else deal with this?  I still feel some days that I am wearing a 20.  Or that I am close to that.  I wear small tops and 6 bottoms.  I have often thought about heading to the children's section to see what I find by way of pants as they used to fit me so well years ago as I am so short.  Yet I still feel like I am fat. 

I felt totally guilty today and confessed to my best friends at work that I had a Mello Yello today.  I hadn't had one in two months, but since I hit 10 lbs to go, I just wanted one.  Then I talked to them about how guilty I felt after I drank it because I may "wake up and have all of the weight back!"  I am seriously f***ed up.  Of course being great like they are they told me one soda wasn't going to put me over the edge and make me gain 70 lbs, then proceeded to give me twizzlers.  Aren't they the bestest!? LOL 

I guess my question to all is "When did you start to feel your size?" 

Friday, April 22, 2011

10 lbs

10 lbs is all I have to lose.  I don't ever think that I have went into any weight loss with just that to lose.  It is an amazing feeling.  The scale has been tempting me, but I have claimed it today!  10 lbs...  WOW!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

On the mend!

I decided to go to the pharmacy and speak to the pharmacist about options that maybe we could give the doctor on what was small and available in adult portions for liquid.  He was AWESOME!  I explained my situation and he even asked if volume of liquids was a problem.  He offered to call my doctor and talk to him about it.  I was very happy with that.  I now have a liquid antibiotic that the dose is in 2tsp!  Oh and it doesn't taste bad at all!  BONUS!  I am so ready to not be peeing razorblades!


So I go to the dr yesterday as I feel as if I am pissing razor blades. You guessed it... UTI. Figures. Anyway, the concern came when I thought of the horse pills associated with most antibiotics. I talked to him about it and he said that he knew of one that would be strong enough on liquid form. Got my scrip and off I went. 11 pharmacies later, no relief. Apparently, no one carries this drug in liquid form. The ones who offered to order it told me 3 days. I am not waiting 3 days (now 4) to get an antibiotic. So my question to you is does anyone know an antibiotic that is either a small pill or is tolerable as a liquid? I want to call the dr back this morning and see what the options are as I can't take the pain anymore! I have had this since Friday! BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Friday, April 15, 2011

Wow, has it really been a month?

I can't believe that I haven't posted in a month! I have been reading but just haven't had the time to sit down and put words on paper so to speak.

Weight is good. Sitting at 136 right now. Still have 11 lbs to goal. I am hoping to get there sometime this summer.

The family and I are working on a garden this year. This is our first try at this as we have so many trees in our yard that the shade is too much for vegetables. We rented a spot at our towns community garden this year to try. The boys are also going to work on their gardening merit badges! Here's to luck with some extra vegetables this year!

Work has been ok. We finally got a new contract ratified this week. We had been working without one since the first of December.

I have just passed 10 months out from surgery. I have enjoyed this experience thoroughly. Over 70 lbs lost! I really wish my brother could see me now! He would be so thrilled. I have been going through a lot of pictures lately to create a book for my 2 year old daughter to go through with pictures so that she doesn't forget his face. I realized while going through these how long I stayed large. I don't see now how I allowed that to happen for so long. Goal WILL come and I WILL get there! What a wondrous feeling!!!

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Tuesday, March 15, 2011

When is enough enough?

I think that I have written about this before, but it has been weighing on me a lot lately.  No pun intended.  When is it time to be done?  I have been dealing with people at work stating that I am getting too thin.  That sentiment has spilled over to the Courthouse today.  I had mention from the Court reporters and a couple of ladies at the Clerk's office.  Thing is I have 13 lbs to go to ultimate goal.  I am still overweight for 2 more lbs.  I am getting a little worried as I am now in a size 6 and 13 more lbs would definitely put me in a size 4.  How accessible is a  size 4 to purchase?  I don't want to be in the same predicament that I was in as a large woman with not being able to find clothing that would fit.  I am in size small pajamas.  Will I have to go to the kids section?  Remember the Dora Panty post?  This all being said, my stomach is still fat.  I still have a good size roll that I can grab on to.  My thighs look like a butt.  I can't afford plastics.  If I lose the 13 lbs, will it come off my stomach or maybe my butt thighs?  I guess I am a little confused about where this journey ends.  I don't know if I could stop losing at this point if I decided not to, but it takes some thought.  Here are some progress pics.  9 months - 69 lbs down

Ok I totally look special ed in this photo, but it shows my stomach without showing too much other stuff...

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Question for all...

So I have a question...  I changed my profile pic to a full body shot because damn, I am in love with my new body.  Problem arises that when I comment on someone's blog, I end up looking like the headless horseman!  How do I prevent this? I am also wanting to find some time to jazz up my blog some.  It will take me forever though.  My question with this one is how do you add multiple pages?  I would love to add some pics!  Thanks everyone!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

So I am back, but not being a good blogger...

I am back home from visiting mom.  I have to say I had a great time!  Life has been so hectic since I returned as I got home late on Monday evening (plane was seriously delayed in Phoenix) and went to work at 8am on Tuesday.  I have mounds of laundry as my husband justified his lack of laundry skills by saying it was impossible to do laundry as we didn't have detergent in the house.   I asked him if they closed the wal-mart while I was gone and didn't get a response.  My husband did however survive the 8 days with the 3 kids.  I am impressed with that.  Weight loss has been great and I lost some weight during my trip which is absolutely awesome as my mother seemed to not understand the concept of me not being able to eat much.  She also didn't understand that bread does not agree with me.  I even tried to go for the crusty part of a roll to shut her up and she took it and said you can have the soft (sticky) middle!  OMG  she totally didn't get it.  I survived eating with her with only 2 stuck episodes.  I haven't gotten stuck since so it was total operator error, but still...  I don't think that I have ever been on a vacation and came back lighter than when I left.  That is amazing.  Do you know what else is amazing?  I am 15 (YES 15) pounds from my goal!  I can't even imagine life there. 

So check me out in my size 6 Lucky capris!!!!! 

I can't believe that I can fit in a size 6!  I am still officially overweight by Mr. BMI (it has to be a man) for a couple more pounds, but a size 6!?  I am impressed with myself after 3 kids.

So mom and I went to Las Vegas on a whim during my trip to visit her.  Here we are right after our helicoptor ride to the Grand Canyon.

I gave mom that outfit.  I am so glad that I can't wear it anymore!
Right before I left on my trip my youngest son crossed over from Cub Scouts to Boy Scouts.  It was a wonderful evening.  Here is a pic of my boys, and yes the older one is that tall!  I am not sure where he got it... I am 5'2"! 
Who can forget the princess!
I am still trying to catch up on reading everyone's posts from when I was gone.  If my commenting is a little light, I am just really behind.  I am working to get caught up on everyone's goings on.  I WILL get caught up!  Just call me the  behind blogger.  OK don't that sounds a bit strange...

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Having a wonderful time!

Mom and I are having a  wonderful time on our visit.  She did not know I was coming until Dad pulled up at the airport and told her to go in and find me!  She was ecstatic!  We have had great fun.  On Monday and Tuesday we drove to Las Vegas and spent some time.  I am not a gambler, so I found other things to occupy my time.  Mom is a gambler so we did spend a fair amount of time in the casinos.   I hadn't been to Las Vegas before so it was an experience.  We are back at her RV now.  She lives in the mountains about an hour from San Diego.  I surely didn't think Southern California would look like this!

I am here until Monday then it is back to reality.  Amazingly, I think that my husband is surviving with the kids.  Have a wonderful week.  I just paid my money for the Spring Challenge.  I am ready to get the rest of this weight off!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

About to head off to Sunny San Diego!

And mom still doesn't know!  I am so proud of myself for being able to keep this secret from her.  I have talked to dad several times and he seems excited about it too.  He is really excited that mom doesn't know.  I leave on Sunday and will be back on Monday a week later.  My dad is only off work on Sundays so if I am to spend any time with him I have to stay that extra Sunday.  I am really excited.  I know that this trip is going to be emotionally draining, but I think it will be an integral part of the healing process for all of us.

I hope that I can get my mom out of the house and walking and such.  She really needs the air, to meet people and I will go insane if I don't get my exercise.  I am still on a downward trek and am 1 pound away from a new decade.  I will be so excited to see that one.  I was putting some stuff away the other day and came across some of my medical records that I had when I got my insurance approval.  I officially weigh less than when I had my gall bladder surgery in 2001!  I was a skinny mini then.  That started my upward trek.  A 10 year odyssey!    I am so glad to be there.  I still want to lose about 15 more pounds.  I will get there, it just will take time...  Maybe the Spring Challenge will get me going! I need some motivation!

Monday, February 21, 2011

ABC's of me!

I love these little survey's. Since so many were posted today, I guessed I should join in!

(A) Age: 35
(B) Bed Size: King
(C) Chore You Hate: Emptying the dishwasher, loading the dishwasher, anything that has to do with dishes
(D) Dogs? none... cat person actually
(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: Coffee
(F) Favorite Color: Green
(G) Gold or Silver? Silver
(H) Height: 5'2"
(I) Instruments You Play: none
(J) Job Title: Probation Officer
(K) Kids: 3 boys (stepson 19, 15, 10) 1 girl (2)
(L) Live: Southern Illinois
(M) Mom's Name: Debbie
(N) Nicknames: Honey
(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? Kidney infection while pregnant with my first, and then with each of my 3 babies.
(P) Pet Peeve: Stupid people
(Q) Quote from a Movie: hmmm... have to think about that one
(R) Right or Left Handed? Right
(S) Siblings: 1 brother who passed away this year at age 30
(T) Time You Wake Up? 6am
(U) Underwear: Hanes Hipsters
(V) Vegetable You Dislike: Cooked Carrots
(W) What Makes You Run Late: I have 3 kids at home, any questions?
(X) X-Rays You've Had Done: teeth, kidneys
(Y) Yummy Food You Make: Chicken strips with Panko crumbs. The kids won't eat fried Chicken strips anymore, they prefer these!
(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Penguins

Saturday, February 19, 2011

What is Normal?

As I approach "normal" on the BMI scale, I wonder what is "normal?"  I am not ready to stop losing yet.  I have a goal in 17 lbs.  I just wonder what the societal definition of normal is.  I have talked about work before and how we all have worked together (14 of us) for 7 years.  We know everything there is to know about each other and can tell by a look what mood the other is in.  The guys in the office LOVE that we have the same cycle too.  After spending the past 7 years with these people, no one thinks twice about telling you that you have a pimple or a nose hair sticking out.  Sickly there are some that say... let me take care of that!  Back to my story.  The people at work are telling me that I am getting too thin.  I still have a serious stomach on me and my thighs still look like a butt, but they are telling me that I am getting to thin.  I think and think that maybe they are right, but I don't want to stop.  I don't hit "normal" BMI for another 6 lbs.

I don't remember if I talked about the problem that I came across a couple of weeks ago with underwear.  (Not the husband problem)  I am 5'2" and am very small boned.  At my largest, I still wore a size 6 ring (I am working on a 4.5 now).  My mother would order me bracelets in children's sizes and I was morbidly obese.  As I lose, I am definitely getting smaller.  So I went to buy new underwear again and looking at sizing, I bought the smallest size on the shelf.  They fit really well.  So I got thinking that if I lose 20 more pounds,  that would definitely be another underwear size.  What am I to do, I have bought the smallest size they carry at Walmart.  The ladies at work suggested Dora panties, but they are just bitches anyway.  LOL  Seriously, am I going to have to resort to Dora panties??????