Well as we head onward...

It appears that there is a new challenge upon us!  Kristen has been so gracious as to keep track of another challenge for us.  Even as she is busy planning her wedding!  Thank you Kristen.  Joey has made a wonderful icon for us.  Joey always does an amazing job on those.  I am ready to go! 

Some of you may have noticed that my comments the past day or so have been short and sweet.  Our laptop went to heaven and I had been typing on the Wii!  I have the old desktop up and running now.  Weight is going well.  I saw a new low this morning.  It will take a couple of days to own it though. 

I need to get heading to get everyone in the house out of bed and ready to start their day.  Have a great one! 

Never trust a hiccup!

At work this morning I had to drive the the detention facility for my juveniles which is about 40 miles away.  It was a nice day, no problems.  Well I was starving on the way home, so I ran through Arby's drive thru for some loaded potato bites (I know not the best choice, but something I thought I could eat while driving).  I get out on the highway and start eating.  Things are not going well.  I know better than to eat and drive.  I pull over and get the roll of diaper bags that I keep in my purse for times like this.  I promptly pb in the baggie.  All is well, I feel fine again.  I don't even try to eat anymore. 

About 12 miles down the road, I am still feeling fine.  No stuck feelings or tightness at all.  I so however feel a hiccup.  Not a big deal, I do that a lot since being banded.  Well not such a little deal...  I proceeded to bring up a PILE of slime.  WHILE DRIVING!  It is all over my shirt, pants, and leaking between my legs onto the cloth seats of the get this... company vehicle!  OMG!!  I frantically look, I have NO Napkins anywhere!  Needless to say I drove the additional 20 miles back to the office covered in slime.  I walked in and told the secretary that I was going home for lunch and if anybody needed the car, talk them out of it and I would explain later.  Anyone know how to get a pile of slime out of cloth seats?  It looks like I peed in it!  I came home and showered.  I still need to go back and clean it up.  I hope that no one needs to use the car!

6:38pm

I look at the clock and realize that it is going to be a long night. My daughter (will be 2 in a couple of weeks) is already asleep.  I hope that she stays.  She got to spend the day with the 2 year old class today, so maybe she played extra hard at school today. 

I had a wonderful day today.  I spend a lot of time just amazed at how much better I feel all of the time.  I feel light and airy,  not tired and dragged down.  I can only imagine that this will keep getting better and better the further I get into this.  I still haven't hit 6 months out yet.  I am hoping to get to 150 lbs by new years.  It is totally doable as that is 12 lbs in 10 weeks.

Some have asked previously, I am really short.  (5'2")  I guess that makes my weights look really low to a lot of people.  My highest ever weight is 210 lbs.  I was completely miserable.  My BMI was 39.  I was wearing a really tight 18.  I couldn't bear to buy a 20.  So I understand that my starting weight may be a lot of others goal, but something that was very unhealthy for me.

Good Morning!

I am having a wonderful morning!  I am officially overweight.  I never thought that I would be so excited to say that.  I have been trying to wrap my head around the fact that I will NEVER be obese again.  The family and I went out yesterday to take some fall pictures.  My 2 year old did not cooperate, but what else is new.

When I got on the scale and saw 162.8, I couldn't believe my eyes.  I stepped off the scale did the happy dance.  I stepped back on. 162.8.  I thought this thing is wrong.  Again 162.8! 

So, I guess I am overweight and  proud of it! 

This week has been a good one.  The weather has been wonderful.  My parents are coming to visit next weekend.  Mom has finished Christmas shopping so I will have to store everything for her, since they will fly home for Christmas.  I haven't even thought about starting Christmas shopping.  My daughter's birthday is November 12, so I probally won't even think about it until after that. 

Thoughts of the day

I think I may have actually figured out how to eat.  Now I know that sounds strange, but I was beginning to think that I was too tight after my last fill.  I was pbing a lot.  It would seem that I was feeling bad after about 2 bites. 

I have made a concious effort to truely slow down and have discovered that was my problem.  My question to all of you wonderful ladies (and a few guys) is, I hate for my food to be cold.  How do you eat so slow without your food getting cold? 

Weight is still going well.  Food intake is right on track.  All is well now that I don't spend all day pbing.  Does anyone know how hard it is to puke in a baby powder scented diaper baggie?  YUCK  I don't know what was worse... the fact that I had to pb or the smell of that baggie! 

My new (old) phone is acting up today.  I washed mine over the weekend.  I feel like such an idiot.  My daughter and I took a long walk on Saturday.  I had on a hoodie sweatshirt and I put my phone in the front pocket.  When I got home, I was talking to my husband as I loaded the washer.  Since I was doing a load of darks, I took it off and threw it in.  It never even touched the ground to where I could have heard it hit.  All my fault.  So I am back to old trusty that spends most of its life in the drawer to cover all of the family members in emergency.  Well old trusty is giving me trouble that I don't understand.  It will not call my mother.  How weird is that?  I have tried dialing with the area code without the area code.  I even erased her contact with my phone.  It always says call failed.  I thought it was her phone at first, but I called her from my office phone and it worked just fine.  So I told her what was going on and told her to call me.  She called on the cell from her phone and it worked just fine.   It has been like this all day.  I know that some would be ok with this, but I talk to my mom a couple of times a day.  Now I have to text her (because that goes through) to call me.  How retarded is that?  Any ideas?  I desperately need a new phone!

100th post!

I have been saving this one for a couple of days as it is my 100th post and I hadn't really come up with anything 100th post worthy to share. 

Tonight, my daughter and I went to my aunts house for dinner.  I had not seen my aunt in a year as last October we had a huge family rift and my mother and her sister and their respective families had not spoken in that time.  She invited us to dinner this evening.  It had been a year since I had seen her or her sons.  The reaction to my weightloss was astounding!   I was really excited to hear that.  Even from my cousins (we all used to be really close), they are 30 & 31 and men and they noticed.  Although I am wondering if it was the clothing that I was wearing today because I had another strange reaction today.  I finally went out of the house in size 12 jeans.  I went to work today and my boss said "Don't take this the wrong way, but you are looking good"  Is that just creepy or what?  I am just so glad that my efforts are being noticed, but was I such a troll or something before?

I am so glad that there are people who are still listening to me ramble after these first 100 posts!  You make be greatful for this community!  Thanks again!

Children

My 10 year old said something that really stuck with me last night.  He shares my battle with the bulge.  He has been a big boy since he was a baby and was also graced with my height. (that isn't a good thing!)

  He is a very compassionate child and has been very interested in my band from the very beginning.  He has been amazed by the weight loss and is the first one to say he is proud of me.  Anyway, we were sitting on the couch last night and he says, "Hailey (my 23 month old) is lucky." "Why honey?" "She will only know how to eat healthy so maybe she will never have to worry about losing weight."  Wow that hit me like a ton of bricks.  I hope that is the case, but I have also had Jordan in the kitchen with me teaching him that there is more to life than what comes from a box. 

I also worry however, that my dieting and trying to put some limits on Jordan may have a lasting effect on him.  When I last cleaned his room, I found a hidden box of cookies.  I did not purchase said box of cookies, so I am not sure where he got them.  He wouldn't answer when  I asked.  *We live in a small town and he could have ridden his bike to the little milk store a couple of blocks away*  Am I ruining his childhood by forcing my family to eat healthier because I don't want them to have to go through what I have?  I got so upset with my husband over the weekend.  He went on a scout camping trip with Jordan.  He also did the shopping for the trip.  I don't think that there was a thing in that bag that wasn't loaded with carbs.  There wasn't a thing healthy.  I was physically sick when I found out they went through 18 soda cans in 2 days.  Should I worry?

Port strangeness

My husband and I were walking through the Rural King (farm type store) on Sunday.  We wander in this store often.  Anyway, we made it out of the house without any children, which since Hailey was born doesn't happen very often.  So we are walking and my husband is strumming my port like it is a guitar or something.  I am not sure if he feels it or that is just where his hand is.  He says, "is that where they put the needle?"  I said yeah.  He thought it was really cool that he could feel it without any effort.  I am concerned that it will show quite a bit when I make it to goal.  I warned my husband of that fact and he said he didn't care.  Do you think that he might think that I will look like a freak?  I would think that I would still have a lot of fluffiness covering it because I still have a lot of weight to go, but I guess not if he can feel it without even trying. 

I have been working on a clothing exchange with Ginger at Gidgets Gadget.  This is a lot of fun.  I have quite a few pairs of pants in a 16 P left over and a couple of 18 P.  So if there are any shortys out there in need... email me!

Also I am looking for clothing in size 12 pants (I am a shorty, but can hem!) and Large or Medium shirts!  Any help would be appreciated!

Restriction

I think that I finally have it.  The weightloss is finally beginning to feel like it is almost effortless.  I am not getting hungry unless I haven't eaten in a long time.  I also do not require much food at all before I am full.   I am starting to have trouble with certain foods even if I go really slow.  But, I am now 2lbs from  being overweight!  I never thought I would get so excited about being overweight.

I haven't been around much this week, but...

I had to post for my 4 month bandiversary!  These past 4 months have been a whirlwind.  I am  down 31lbs since then (10 more before) for a total of 41 lbs lost!  I never imagined that I would be where I am now.  I still have a ways to go, but it all seems attainable!  I am doing well with my fill.  I think that I am where I need to be.  Eating is no longer the first thing on my mind.  I have to just day WOW!  To anyone reading this that is in the process of getting approval for surgery, keep going.  It may seem never ending now, but in the blink of an eye you will look back and wonder how you ever lived that way.  You will start living your life in ways you never imagined.  I am only 1/2 way there, I am so excited to see what there is to come!  I have been stopped at the Courthouse that I work out of (I am not there everyday) several times in the past week in several different offices to wonder what I am doing.  The weightloss must really be starting to show!  Here are some pictures!  I had to change the picture clothing.  The pants wouldn't stay up anymore!

Happy October!

Well it would appear by the outside of my house that October is here.  My hubby and boys have been putting up the zoo of halloween decorations all day.  These are pictures from last year, but you get the idea!  I spent the day relaxing a bit.  My oldest son went to his first homecoming last night.  I stayed up much later than I normally do. I don't know how I am going to handle this stay up until they get home thing.  I may have to make curfew 8pm! 

He was such a gentleman with his date.  It was really cute!  I can't believe how big he is getting!  He gets such a giggle when I ask him to reach something for me.

My fill from last week is still tight.  I am doing ok with it.  It is a learning process.  I think that this throat thing I have had going since Friday is causing more trouble than the tightness.  I can drink anything without trouble, eating I just need to go really slow.  I guess that means I really have what I need in my band!  The weather cooled down here this weekend.  I put on a sweatsuit from last year, I am swimming in it.  That is a good thing in so many ways!

I saw IT this morning!

40 lbs GONE FOREVER!  I never thought that I would reach this point!  This milestone totally makes me want to go on and on.  40lbs also means that I am really close to halfway to goal.  I would like to again thank all of you who follow me and leave the most supportive comments as I travel down the road to healthy.