Anyway he finally tells me that he will take out the fill that he put in last time. 1.0 cc. OK, good. Now I am wondering... What is the green zone? Does anyone really know what it feels like? Maybe I was there and the last fill put me over the edge? I have 6.5 cc now.
My surgeon didn't make me another appointment. He told me to call when I felt I needed a fill. Great! Then he says something that really gets me. He said that where I am on weight now 145 lbs is where most people my height would stop and say that they are fine. I am not fine. I need to lose 20 more lbs to not be overweight anymore. He said that I have surpassed all weightloss goals in the 7 months since I have had my band. He said that I would still lose, but just that this is where most of his patients are comfortable. NOT ME! So I guess I call when I need a fill and go on with my life. I hope that this exercise bug remains!!!!!!
So on the way home, I hadn't eaten anything all day and it was now 2pm. I had a protein shake for breakfast. I am getting a little hungry. I think of what in the world I could eat and drive. Nothing came to mind, so I went to McDonalds (I know, I know). I was going to get a snack size mcflurry as I could go slow and possibly make it home without PB. Anyway I get to the order and something makes me change my mind. I order a McDouble with the bun... I slowly eat half of it. I am full, but no PB. Does this mean that I could possibly eat somewhat like a normal human? I only eat the half. I take that as a victory. And I am reminded that McD is nasty... Oh well it was an experiment anyway. I hope I am not too loose!
On other news, My husband received the District Award of Merit from the Boys Scouts last night. It was a wonderful evening. Food was served and I wasn't scared of PBing after this afternoons adventures. That was an awesome feeling because I haven't been able to eat in public for a while. Served to us was fried chicken, mashed potatoes with white gravy, corn, and rolls. OMG carb city! I ate very little without pain and was satisfied. Maybe this is the green zone and I didn't know it last time?
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So glad this unfill has provided relief! Was your husband surprised or did he figure it out ahead of time? I think I remember reading a previous post that you and the organizers were trying to surprise him.
Glad you're feeling better fill-wise, being overfilled is my biggest fear (along with my first PB, oy!), so the thought of being overfilled for a month or so is almost unthinkable! I don't blame you for not listening to your doctor about where he thinks you should be, it's all about your personal comfort! :)
RELIEF! Sweet Relief!~
Glad you got the unfill and that it's working better. That was a long time to go but it's so hard to take time out of anything to make these appts - and add an hour to that...ugh.
My question is how tall are you? Seems like you chose a weight that was appropriate for your height, but I can't remember. Odd to say that "good enough" is ok. I find it rather funny that BMI is used to gauge whether we need this thing or not...but it isn't used to determine if a goal weight is healthy. Absurd! I think a lot of surgeons do that - and I think they do that to help their "success rate". Whatever. This journey isn't about them...
Glad you are able to eat again! It's worth it, isn't it!?
I love how doctors just assume we'd never think of things like eating slowly and chewing thouroughly when we're having constant PB issues! And I'm so glad you got some relief! I personally consider the green zone to be the point where I can EVERYTHING in limited quantity. If I couldn't eat a McDonald's sandwich, I'd consider myself too full.
Great news, the green zone is so elusive!
He's a bit clueless. I love my doc. When I started taking Wellbutrin (an antidepressant) my band loosened. I think it had something to do with serotonin which is throughout the gut. I just went off it and had another fill so will see if I get looser or tighter. I'm hoping for tighter to stop me eating so much.
Yay for the unfill, I just had one too and had a similar conversation with my doctor.
"uh... gee, no it never occured to me I should eat slowly - I've just been shoving the food in by the truck load as fast as I could - do you think that's why I was getting stuck???" How stupid do they think we are??
But - I'm thrilled you're able to eat again. I know it was a huge relief for me!
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