Good Friday Morning!

It has been a week since I have last been here.  Lets just say the week has been interesting.  First off, my normally great marriage went awry with probably one of the bigger fights we have had in the 18 years we have been together.  Lets just say he thought it would be a good idea for my cellphone to take a dip in paint thinner!  He said "well I was mad and it was there.." Yeah, Bullshit!  Oh well all is on the mend and I have a new phone on the way tomorrow. 

Our anniversary is tomorrow and we are going to be really romantic and hang kitchen cabinets.  I have been waiting for a new kitchen since we bought this house 6 years ago,  and the day has come.  It has been a lot of work leading up to this as I got the ingenious idea that getting the cabinets you stain would be a good move.  My thought process is that we have hardwood floors throughout the upstairs except the kitchen which is tile.  We refinished them 3 summers ago so I know what stain I used so I could get red oak cabinets and stain them the same as the hardwoods and it would pull the whole house together.  BIG JOB!  I am almost finished with 1/2 of the cabinets.  I haven't brought home the rest as they wouldn't fit in my garage.  I am exhausted.  My poor 15 year old made the mistake and informed me that they learned how to stain in shop class this year.  That wasn't the smartest move on his part this week.  He has helped though. 

On the weightloss front, after a stall for what seemed like forever, I have lost 3 lbs this week!  I am not sure what is going on as I haven't changed anything!  I am not going to complain though as I really want to get to goal.  Only 7lbs to go!  I am truly believing that hormones control a lot of this and my body just said it was time to let go again. 

I need to be getting everyone up and ready for school.  Have a wonderful Friday everyone and here's to hoping that yours is sunny!

Well I get to type again...

I typed this post yesterday on my ipod and it was lost for some reason so here I go again...

I am holding steady at 135 lbs.  Unfortunately this is just 3 lbs away from overweight, so I would really like to lose 10 more lbs to have more of a cushion in the normal range.  I don't know if I will get there anytime soon.  My mind really hasn't been in the game.  I am pretty depressed.   I am hoping that soon that will subside a bit.  Up until last week I was still driving my brother's truck on a daily basis.  That was difficult on me, but we were supposed to sell it and it was in the paper for quite some time.  My husbands car was on its last leg, so we finally decided to trade it for him a new to us van.  It was very difficult to let it go, but necessary. 

My mind just isn't into losing.  I probably need another fill, but I have been able to maintain for over a month by eating anything that I wanted.  Those food choices probably haven't been the best, but I have maintained with no problem. 

I am thinking about talking to my doctor regarding this depression.  He gives me a LOT of xanax to deal, but I need something that is longer lasting.  I am afraid to take anything though, as what my mom got on she has gained all of the weight that she lost back... FAST.  Oh and she felt fit to share with me that she no longer has any interest in sex.  (Thanks for that one mom!)   I can't deal with those side effects.  I guess I will just muddle on and hope for the best.

I want to be able to post more.  I really do!  I read everyday, just haven't been too inspired to write anything down.  I totally do not regret my band in any way!  This is the best thing I have ever done with my life.  Thanks for listening to my rambling...

Omg

So I just typed out this whole post on my iPod and it disappeared! Be back later with a real post! Geez

I am in LOVE!

I was a big soda drinker for many years.  Always yellow sodas.  I have never been able to stand colas.  Diet Mt. Dew was just nasty.  What is a girl to do?  Well I gave up on soda for over a year.  I would have one regular Mello Yello (my preferred) a month as a treat to myself.  Imagine my surprise when I went into my local little grocer today and saw this...

I think I was actually jumping for joy in the store!  I bought a 20oz and it was WONDERFUL!

Needed.... Ark

Since Friday we have had 11.5 inches of rain in our rain gauge!  The Mississippi River and the Ohio River are both seriously flooded and they converge 60 miles south of me.  This is all adding up to a not good situation.  My husband hasn't slept through the night in a week as he gets up every couple of hours to make sure the basement is ok.  The river that flows through our town in only 5 feet from the bottom of the bridge.  Luckily we only have to deal with the storm drains backflowing.  I just wish it would stop RAINING! 

This better bring some awesome May flowers! 

How you see yourself?

I was watching TV last night.  On Entertainment Tonight they were talking about Kate Middleton and her dress size.  I have always thought that she was a very beautiful woman and also very thin.  They asked some to guess her dress size.  They announced that it was a UK size 8 which is a US size 6.  I was stunned to say the least I would have guessed a US 2 or something.  This leads me to a thought as I am a US size 6 right now.  I totally don't see myself as thin. 

Does anyone else deal with this?  I still feel some days that I am wearing a 20.  Or that I am close to that.  I wear small tops and 6 bottoms.  I have often thought about heading to the children's section to see what I find by way of pants as they used to fit me so well years ago as I am so short.  Yet I still feel like I am fat. 

I felt totally guilty today and confessed to my best friends at work that I had a Mello Yello today.  I hadn't had one in two months, but since I hit 10 lbs to go, I just wanted one.  Then I talked to them about how guilty I felt after I drank it because I may "wake up and have all of the weight back!"  I am seriously f***ed up.  Of course being great like they are they told me one soda wasn't going to put me over the edge and make me gain 70 lbs, then proceeded to give me twizzlers.  Aren't they the bestest!? LOL 

I guess my question to all is "When did you start to feel your size?" 

10 lbs

10 lbs is all I have to lose.  I don't ever think that I have went into any weight loss with just that to lose.  It is an amazing feeling.  The scale has been tempting me, but I have claimed it today!  10 lbs...  WOW!