New year, new life

I start 2011 much unlike 2010.  I am not making a new year's resolution to lose weight.  This is the first year in decades that I am not doing that.  Yes I am still overweight for about 15 more lbs, but I know that I can obtain what I am wanting weightwise in this year without having to change anything that I am doing now.  That is a powerful feeling! 

I also start 2011 without my really good friend, my brother.  I have been really silent in the blogging world lately as I have been having a really difficult time dealing with his loss.  The holidays haven't helped, I guess.  I went today to pick up his truck.  It was difficult to drive it home as it smelled like him.  I now have to clean it and sell it.  That is going to be a very difficult time for me.  I guess it still doesn't feel real because we still don't know what happened.  It may be another month before we get the results of the autopsy and they won't tell us anything until toxicology comes back. 

I also start 2011 sixty pounds lighter than 2010.  That is a major accomplishment.  I feel so much lighter!  I have energy and don't require as much sleep.  I can get up off the floor after playing with my kids without pain.  I look to 2011 to be my time to heal!