200 followers!

What a wonderful morning to wake up and find that the world didn't end, and I have 200 followers!  When I started this journey, I didn't figure anyone would care about what I had to say.

I was thinking yesterday as I was posting to Facebook about my husband and my anniversary that I can't believe that I spent so many years big.  I posted a picture from our wedding with it.   I couldn't help but think how much fun it would have been to search for a dress at this smaller size.   Oh well, I won't be doing that again as this was our 4th anniversary after getting remarried after being divorced for 3 years and married for 10 before that.  OK that was a mouthful, but if you follow me...  I am married to my ex-husband LOL.  That "break" as we call it was the best thing ever for us.  We never were totally happy in the first 10 years.  We can say now that we are totally happy in every way.  This is what it was supposed to be.  I met my husband when I was 17 years old.  We got married the first time when I was 19.

I had a good cry going through the photos to find one to post on Facebook with my status.  I really miss my brother.  Tell me, does it get any better?  The other day I broke down to a full on crying jag in the middle of meeting with a client at WORK!  These people must think I am nuts!  Let alone this was my first meeting with these clients.

Back to the wedding photo.  I am so glad that I don't look like that anymore.  Our anniversary yesterday was supposed to consist of working on the kitchen cabinets and such.  Unfortunately, we got a call at 7am that one of our boys was sick at Scout Camp and we needed to come and get him.  Camp was 3 hours away.  We spent our whole day in the car.  Oh well, we worked on the cabinets when we got home and I have to say the part that we have finished didn't have cabinets before and I LOVE it.  I have room for everything!  I will post photos when we get this all finished.  I can't wait.  I hope that the cabinet maker finishes the few cabinets that we are short before we can work on the island and the other wall soon!

Everyone have a wonderful Sunday.  I am going to get off of here and work on some laundry! 

Good Friday Morning!

It has been a week since I have last been here.  Lets just say the week has been interesting.  First off, my normally great marriage went awry with probably one of the bigger fights we have had in the 18 years we have been together.  Lets just say he thought it would be a good idea for my cellphone to take a dip in paint thinner!  He said "well I was mad and it was there.." Yeah, Bullshit!  Oh well all is on the mend and I have a new phone on the way tomorrow. 

Our anniversary is tomorrow and we are going to be really romantic and hang kitchen cabinets.  I have been waiting for a new kitchen since we bought this house 6 years ago,  and the day has come.  It has been a lot of work leading up to this as I got the ingenious idea that getting the cabinets you stain would be a good move.  My thought process is that we have hardwood floors throughout the upstairs except the kitchen which is tile.  We refinished them 3 summers ago so I know what stain I used so I could get red oak cabinets and stain them the same as the hardwoods and it would pull the whole house together.  BIG JOB!  I am almost finished with 1/2 of the cabinets.  I haven't brought home the rest as they wouldn't fit in my garage.  I am exhausted.  My poor 15 year old made the mistake and informed me that they learned how to stain in shop class this year.  That wasn't the smartest move on his part this week.  He has helped though. 

On the weightloss front, after a stall for what seemed like forever, I have lost 3 lbs this week!  I am not sure what is going on as I haven't changed anything!  I am not going to complain though as I really want to get to goal.  Only 7lbs to go!  I am truly believing that hormones control a lot of this and my body just said it was time to let go again. 

I need to be getting everyone up and ready for school.  Have a wonderful Friday everyone and here's to hoping that yours is sunny!

Well I get to type again...

I typed this post yesterday on my ipod and it was lost for some reason so here I go again...

I am holding steady at 135 lbs.  Unfortunately this is just 3 lbs away from overweight, so I would really like to lose 10 more lbs to have more of a cushion in the normal range.  I don't know if I will get there anytime soon.  My mind really hasn't been in the game.  I am pretty depressed.   I am hoping that soon that will subside a bit.  Up until last week I was still driving my brother's truck on a daily basis.  That was difficult on me, but we were supposed to sell it and it was in the paper for quite some time.  My husbands car was on its last leg, so we finally decided to trade it for him a new to us van.  It was very difficult to let it go, but necessary. 

My mind just isn't into losing.  I probably need another fill, but I have been able to maintain for over a month by eating anything that I wanted.  Those food choices probably haven't been the best, but I have maintained with no problem. 

I am thinking about talking to my doctor regarding this depression.  He gives me a LOT of xanax to deal, but I need something that is longer lasting.  I am afraid to take anything though, as what my mom got on she has gained all of the weight that she lost back... FAST.  Oh and she felt fit to share with me that she no longer has any interest in sex.  (Thanks for that one mom!)   I can't deal with those side effects.  I guess I will just muddle on and hope for the best.

I want to be able to post more.  I really do!  I read everyday, just haven't been too inspired to write anything down.  I totally do not regret my band in any way!  This is the best thing I have ever done with my life.  Thanks for listening to my rambling...

Omg

So I just typed out this whole post on my iPod and it disappeared! Be back later with a real post! Geez

I am in LOVE!

I was a big soda drinker for many years.  Always yellow sodas.  I have never been able to stand colas.  Diet Mt. Dew was just nasty.  What is a girl to do?  Well I gave up on soda for over a year.  I would have one regular Mello Yello (my preferred) a month as a treat to myself.  Imagine my surprise when I went into my local little grocer today and saw this...

I think I was actually jumping for joy in the store!  I bought a 20oz and it was WONDERFUL!