I totally never thought that I would be here. I had my children never thinking that they would leave me. I figured that they would always be there no matter what. My oldest son started high school today. I think that I cried more today than I did the day he started kindergarten. I feel like my days with him are numbered. Why this is hitting me like this I don't know. I still see him as that skinny little kid who we never thought would grow into his ears. He has grown into them nicely and is so much taller than me too! Not a hard thing to accomplish as I am 5'2". I feel like I can see the end my duties to him, and I don't like it one bit.
I have a 1 year old, so my youngness is still upon me, but I feel like I am ancient. Next comes the driver's license. I am not sure if I can handle him being in control of anything that goes more than 5mph. He will get his permit in January. Why did my mother not explain (or maybe I didn't listen) that it is all over in a blink. You don't realize when you think that the diapers will never end, that you will wake up and they will be going to prom. Make the most of every moment, no matter what and treasure each stage in your children's life no matter how annoying it is at the time. I feel like I have missed out on so much even though I have been there the whole time. That is my truest wish with the band, I have so much more energy now to be involved with my kids and not worry about being the "fat mom."
On a good note, my husband surprised me at work today with flowers. He didn't even get me flowers when the kids were born. I wonder what he has done that I don't know about yet? They were beautiful though!
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What a sweet gesture...puts a smile on your face! Another stage in our lives...kids growing up!
Its funny because Facebook is full today of moms posting about their kids. He looks like a fantastic young man in the making--must be nice to know that you played a major part of that huh?
YAY for the flowers!!! My oldest starts HS this year too. :(
Awww, cherish those years. I agree there will be days when he will be all "I KNOW mom!!" He will ask to borrow the car and you will have to repeat the rules everytime you hand over the keys, but you know what you won't trade it for the world. I know I didn't. HS goes literally in a blink of an eye. Someone told me the same thing and I didn't realize how quick that blink actually was until I was watching my son walk across the stage at graduation. It goes quickly.
The flowers were so sweet. Lets hope they are just an appreciation gift.
OMG - you totally made me cry with this one - my little girl starts Kindergarten in 2 weeks!
He looks like a good kid - be proud of what you've accomplished.
Awe! Don't worry about your kids. Even if they might leave to go off to college and get jobs and get married and stuff, they will ALWAYS be there for you, when you need them, when you want them, to be your kids!
That's so sweet about the flowers!!
Christine
www.phoenixrevolution.net
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